As Old As A Tree In This Business

Sometimes you just wish that you are done with the first 10 years of your career. Most of the artist I admire usually hit it big or are in the prime of their career after sticking with the business for ten years. Ten years seems a bit too long, is there any other way to do it? Specially if you aren't as gifted or talented as those guys? What's the percentage of people making it big in their career specially if you are in commercial art? And should I keep on skipping breakfast?

Just Get It Done

Sometimes having a personal deadline can be a bit stressful. Specially if you want to follow your own set deadlines. you have to find ways to get yourself to work and be satisfied with the work that you did. Usually I even forget to add some stuff to my work. But, a deadline's a deadline and in order for me to crank out my personal stuff i have to follow my rules. Most of the time you are never done, you just say "that's enough, and i'll just make the next one better". Unfortunately, 8/10 the next one is just as bad as the one you did before that. You only see the difference after you compare your works which you considered "done" 2 years ago to the work that you do now.

Growing... like a plant

Trying my hand on conceptualizing some plants. I know i have a long way to go with colors, but this is an improvement. It might not be much but it does give me a bit of hope with colors. Back then I used to fear colors, I was just used to pencils and inks. And although i already know what to look for in a good color piece, every time I start one i would end up not knowing where i went wrong or even not have the slightest clue what to do next. All i know was it was not how i saw it in my mind's eye. But for more than two years I've been working in a 3d art company and i guess whatever i've been doing there is helping me get better. It's nice to see that I'm still growing as an artist.

Sketching Away That Fear

I need to learn how to draw women. Well, beautiful, emotive women. And it's hard. I don't know how those other artists do it. But i need to figure it out. Soon. Thank god pencils are on my side. They at least make me a bit comfortable and not as nervous when I try to draw the opposite sex. I personally have a hard time drawing women. You know how other artist make their women sexy, emotive and at the same time respectable? I hope to one day do that... but for now, i guess this is where I am. No better way to get better than to draw and draw and draw. And use reference of course.

Am i doing it right?

Didn't think my laziness would get the best of me last year. Maybe this year will be different from last year. Hopefully I can get some kind of momentum and really start blogging. My last
year was spent with me thinking i needed to get better, maybe this year I really start drawing
and use those drawings for blogs. Why didn't I think of that last year. Maybe this sketch might be where i start.

HUH?! Are YOU sure?!

Being an artist is a hard thing. It's weird. Drawing or learning how to paint is a pain specially if time is against you. You're not getting any younger and techniques or medium or pipelines are being developed every minute. You wish you can just easily download them into your system or learn them the way they do in the matrix. It's annoying. Really. You feel you have improved, but the question is have you improved enough that you can attract attention to your work. Every artist wants to get better or be the best, but only a few make it. From a guy who was an art admirer, to a student, to a working artist.... i'm not sure where the finish line is. Sometimes the journey can suck the life out of you. But very rarely, you'll see a bit of improvement to make you smile. Let's hope all this work and practice is going that way. Now i'm just ranting since it's 2 am.

New Site

Finally my new site is up. I'm happy about having a new site. I'll try to update it as much as i can. Maybe even get some page views. Now all i have to do is spread the word and try to get as much work done AND post them. Thank god i haven't made promises saying i'll post stuff on a daily basis.
If you are just curious here's a link to my site:

http://www.inthelandofsleep.com

-Later

Been very productive on this painting for the past couple of days. Too bad the under painting isn't going to dry as fast as i wanted it to. I never thought that i would enjoying painting, with me being afraid of colors. Hey, at least i'm happy with how this is coming out so far. On the other hand my deviantart account is so dead. Nothing new to post there. Well, nothing new that is good enough. Maybe by Feb. Oh yeah this is acrylics and oil on 20"x30" illustration board. Maybe someday i can paint for other people. I wouldn't mind doing portraits like this. It's fun and has a lot of life and character. Well, i guess i'm done for tonight.

Post more damn it!

I should blog more often. But then it would get in the way of work... and play. First semester of my last year at the Kubert school is done. That was an exhausting sem. Feel a little excited that now we get to do stuff WE want to do. I just hope i don't get carried away. Trying to write a script that i want to get published. hopefully turn it into a graphic novel. yesterday i thought i could option it and get it made into a movie. Keep on dreaming dimwit. Anyway, here's one of the stuff I'm working on. Yes i should post the other stuff i've worked on. But then everyone will see how crappy an artist/ illustrator i am. Here's a painting i'm trying to finish. It's still in its pencil stage though, i know...a little too much pencil if i am going to paint over it. But who cares, i love pencils. It's what got me started drawing... and comics. I'll post all the progress i make... and hopefully get it done on time.

Sick little me

Damn, after working hard on one of my assignment i am hit with a terrible stomach sickness. The doctors said that i would not be able to work for a couple of days since it adds to my stress. After i am well and done catching up with work i wll be posting some new stuff here. If only i could get well soon so i could get back to the drawing board. Oh well.

A slow day

A couple of days ago i saw Beowolf. It reminded me of some stuff thati did a couple of months ago. Here's some viking art for all you people. It's a slow day and i got deadlines for one of classes. If i don't get it done then i just screwed myself. On the brighter side of life weather hasn't been brutal enough to make me miserable. Thank god for clothing, one of the most taken for granted things man ever invented. Oh yeah, it's back to school after a week's break. This was done for a project that required us to do 3 different styles we were capable of.

Blog my ass off!

I guess I decided it was time for me to start my own blog. Don't know why. I guess there are days where you just need to rant to the virtual world we believe we live in. I am not a deep person and i am not here to save the world, just here to talk/brag/whine/shout/rant about whatever happened to me that i think is worth remembering since i have a low capacity for remembering memorable experiences in life. So with open arms i welcome myself to the world of blogging. May the cyber God (if there is one) save us all. Oh yeah, i'll also try to post some of my stuff that i drew. If my worthless blabbing isn't your cup of tea, then hopefully my illustrations are.